‘go to therapy’ is so…even if i could afford it (and i can’t); i wouldn’t be able to articulate how i actually feel without risking hospitalization and like…isn’t articulating how you feel/your thoughts the whole point?
i literally slept for like 15 hours yesterday because i just couldn’t deal with the idea of being conscious and i was so, so tired from being in pain the whole day before like… who goes through that looking forward to life and all it can bring?? the way i feel isn’t unreasonable, it makes perfect sense considering my circumstances.