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I’m beginning to really understand beauty and how I unconsciously praise it in others and the more that I think about it, the more I’m angered by it. I’m thankful for reading and writing because it makes things really small and you have to pay attention to the world when you are a writer. No wonder every writer under the sun is immensely exhausted lol, It reminds me of what Susan Sontag said:

And I also think about what Joan Didion said in The Center Will Not Hold about how when she analyzed something, she was no longer afraid of it. I know that people generally say that you shouldn’t overthink or look too deeply into things but I feel writers have to fall right into those things in order to feel OK and feel some sort of clarity.